Diamond Standard

I don't really think. There was a time where I used to be somewhat smart, or at least I used to believe I was smart. I think I might need doctors for my entire life, at least I need someone to intervene and go through my things. I'm so used to being carried around and shown everything and handled in submission so I don't really know what is going to happen to me. I really don't care about the future though. At least I know that I can live with myself in the moment and that is the only thing that matters. I've been committing my life to video so people will know what the life of a regular guy is like. Really I don't think I need a personal identity at all. I am just like everyone and that is fine with me. I'm trying to get rid of most of what belongs to me as possible even the most tedious parts of my life. It's like one of those closing sales where they put a sign that says "Everything Must Go", that is my life right now. I am trying to cancel out any bit of self I have left until all that I have is clarity, and that's definitely what I need.